A new year a new me

I will be the first to admit that I have not been working to my full potential as a nude model, or camgirl whichever term you but I am going to change that.
 As some of you know I had been shooting for my own site. When I had first head the news that I was getting my own site I was totally stoked about and couldn't wait to start blogging, and shooting some fun, sexy content for my fans; and of course having a site to call my own would have been pretty cool too.

see pissed off look 

To be quite frank that completely fell through.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              first of all the photographer and I did not vibe or get along at all. Second reason being that it was not fun or enjoyable in any way to shoot. It was more like having a million insults thrown in my face while trying to look sexy and look like im this confident sex goddess. After weeks of that I quit the site it takes a toll on your self esteem. I felt I would never make it in modeling and took a hiatus from mfc.

So I've since made a promise to myself that Im not going to do any modeling if im not fully enjoying the shoot. I started working an almost minimum wage job as a hostess for awhile. I continued to tweet which is something that I had always enjoyed. and got on mfc every once in awhile. Then the other day on mfc  I remembered how much fun I used to have and how much I loved it and it was for sure not the tips that night lol. I have since figured out that some people are just assholes and theres nothing to change them. Honestly  the pictures with that photographer came out great besides the pissed off look on my face :)
So as of last week thanks to a wonderful shoot with nubiles and some encouraging words from a few fans I decided I'm going to buckle down. So I created a blog decided to sell panties and I've decided to shoot my own pictures and videos. So I'm back for the new year and ready to make my dream a reality . I know I have a lot of work to do but ready to do it. I have my confidence back and I know I can do anything

One hell of a week

So this post should be about me and blah blah blah. However I have to much on my mind for that. It all started sunday when one of my best girlfriends whom we will call Amanda, called me saying she needed to talk. We usually talk everyday but I hadnt heard from her in almost a month which had me worried. She called me saying she had gotten kicked out of her parents house and was staying in a hotel. She told me other stuff but I couldn't decider half of what she was saying. I knew something was very wrong and offered to let her stay at my house. She declined but instead wanted me to do some laundry for her and her husband. So she stopped by with a bag full of laundry and left. When she was here it was clear to me that she was not herself she seemed disheveled talking a million miles a minute then and wasted. Once she left I was worried sick and started crying unvontrollably that was not the amanda I know. The. A few days later she calls me saying her and her husband are on a break and she needed a place to stay for a few days, I immediately said yes I was so happy to have her here and safe. Then tells me that another girl whom I didn't know was gonna stay here too I said absolutely not and eventually gave in. Amanda ended up staying one night then the next day she decided she was going to go back to her old partying ways I let her go nothing I could do about it. Once they left I went looking for a Victorias secret bag that had all the new underwear and a few bras that I had just purchased. It was nowhere to be found I've looked everywhere the miss me jeans I treated myself to after I did barely legal gone as well as some other clothes and and things. I am still livid. I feel like said friend really just needed a place for her and her disgusting friend to sleep and shower for a night. I feel so used its not even funny. And that girl fucked with my work and my money I now have to figure out how I'm going to recuperate all my bras and underwear little. I try to open up my home for some one and help someone out and this is what I get in return. Sorry for this not so great blog post I promise to have better ones in the future. If you would like to help me out and help me get new lingerie I would be ever so thankful.
Well I'm off to go get ready to find some new cam clothes